disappointed

I don't know what's on earth i was thinking!
My head is going bigger as hell bullshit he said.
He made me like I'm the one and the top priority of him
thou i had already knew the fact that he can't forget boud his ex gf
but as i said, i'm too near to him so i can't get him outta my head anymore
he didnt even try to find me when im stuck in the loneliness
he let my feeling faded as time goes by
he let me face all the f ing problems alone
and i cant really stand for it, nomore.
Now, his ex gf is in a broken hearted situation
then he suddenly called her
watta suprised!
he even didnt want to give his number to me
he said,
" i dont give numbers "
well it does hurt me enough to make me always remember bouddit
i just learn much from him but not for love
cause i really dont deserve his love or anything from him
i just act like i care boud him and her ex gf
but the fact was nothing
it was a mistaken to know him
yeahh but after all hes my net daddy so i dont have to act such fool
hes going to jakarta just to meet his baby
i dont even want to see his face when he arrives here
and the drama will never stop
now his ex gf wont to see his face here
she even said,
" its better for him to buy me a ticket to meet my boyfriend than to come here "
thats really hurt if he finds out this
:((